Self-pity-Such a Useless thing

Self-pity - such a useless thing,
Like a raging bee it comes to give you a fearful sting.
Yet though I despise it so,
I always manage to sink this low.

Self-pity - such a useless thing,
Who knows how much sorrow this new bout will bring?
My body curls into itself, only to come back out again,
How dare this thing take over me and fill me with pain?

Self-pity - such a useless emotion,
My anger flares as this demon puts in a notion
that I am silly, useless, stupid, a nuisance to everyone else.
Feelings I know deep down are false.

Self-pity - stay away from me!
Leave me! Leave me be!
Do not come where you are not wanted!
Your words are so cruel, they leave me feeling haunted.

Self-pity - I no longer fear you!
My heart shall ring true!
Now I have nothing to fear!
Now my cheek won’t hold a tear!

Self-pity – you are so black
But late at night, I hear you creeping back.
No-one can stop you, my friend.
No-one can even pretend.